as i wait....

hide me now
under your wings
cover me
within your mighty hand

when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
i will be still and know you are God.

find rest my soul
in Christ alone
know His power
in quietness and trust
~ Hillsong "Still"

the last 72 hours have been extremely rough.....God is taking care of me....but it still does not take a way the pain that i am feeling.....
my heart hurts....
i am frustrated....
i am lonely....
i do not understand why....

i am praying for strength and clarity!
i am asking that God would comfort me
change my heart so that it aligns with his
keep my heart pure as i wait...

when satan is mad

you know that God has an amazing oppurtunity before you....
a chance to experience something great......a once and a life time kinda encounter.....
and you say yes.....you submit to this thing that is going to change your life forever!!!!

as a believer this is something that we become accustomed to....it is an almost a regular thing.....

but yet we seem to forget it is coming.....
that is the place where i find myself right now....

i am headed to China!!! an amazing oppurtunity to change a portion of this world for eternity.....
but low and behold....and $500 later....my car is still not fixed......

i am trusting that God is going to take care of it all.....
all the debt...
all the money i need to raise....
all of it....

just as he takes care of the the lillies and the birds.....
and giving good gifts to his children....

satan...take that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!